i am ready for love
a telling title for today’s piece. india arie. now cousin Esi you see what leaving me alone to my thoughts has wrought. however i feel relieved. its been a few months, call that a year.
ready to love (again)
its a conscious choice arrived at upon thorough introspection. i nonetheless disagree with the cliche ‘it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all!’. loss is not to be trifled with! holding on to it is what necessitates detox. a retreat from similar stimuli. remember, that feeling of love, is a chemical reaction in the brain. imagine what it does to clarity of judgement.
back to Esi. she’s a kind sweet girl one of our senior last borns 😉 very forgiving when i make her suffer publicly as she donates her story for dissection in the interests of … er humanity. we teased her about a boyfriend and i was taken aback when contrary to her coy nature she brushes it off with a dismissive ” ‘on to the next one’ ! i am so over it/ that one/ him (i forget which)!”. the matter was not pursued further.
recently a girl friend to the other senior last born was at hand to further the body of this particular piece. aunt Monica spotted them together and proceeded to wonder loudly about his ‘other’ girlfriend. ‘ you know he had another girlfriend!… has he told you!?..and she was beauuutiful…..’ the concern in her voice is undeniable. turning to him; ‘yang… what happened?!…’ hehe lol. he can only manage a sheepish grin as everyone else is in stitches. mark, its a hospital ward; pardon the pun.
As they disperse Aunt Monica offers faith, ” dont worry, if it doesn’t work, ACCEPT and…” 🙂 everyone choruses in “and MOVE ON…!” 😀 i love my family. i count my blessings
its about putting your self together. a romantic relationship is an investment of time, money and energy. energy here constitutes emotional, physical, mental and spiritual exertion. some recover faster and are ‘ on-to-the-next-one!’. others will wallow in self pity and denial not welcoming the apolitical ‘accept-and-move-on!’